Letters from Sasha: A Poem
Note: Sasha would like readers to know she wrote this poem to express feelings about a confusing time in her life. It is not necessarily directed toward anyone other than herself – a self she didn’t fully realize until several years ago. Knowledge is power.
into the void
last night she didn’t sleep a bit
don’t worry she’ll be fine
but once again she’s in the pit
(the void shaped like your mind)
no other mind will ever do
no things can satisfy
no drug is ever shaped like you
the shape that gets her high
it’s not her fault she never knew
she didn’t know her brain
could dig a hole shaped just like you
then fill it up with pain
the Special Interest far beyond
a train, a plane, a map
sometimes she wants a magic wand
to free her from your trap
a bump, a drink, some tears, a song
yet nothing fills the hole
it’s good it’s bad it’s right it’s wrong
confusion takes a toll
most times content but later sad
her tears mixed up with joy
then discontent with feelings glad
the muse the fan the toy
it’s not your fault you couldn’t know
you’ll never know her brain
or places she thought she might go
or wishes wished in vain
she’s better now yet not today
today she’s in the throes
of thoughts that will not go away
so to your mind she goes
she yearns and waits and looks for word
your words can soothe her soul
and leave her feeling reassured
(but words can’t make her whole)
mpardidotcom 
Sasha. This is a deeply moving piece. To say this reflects great talent would be totally inadequate. It is the manifestation of a personhood who has courageously gone fully within, to discover and understand the utter and true core of one’s being, understand that core, and bring it into expression which deeply touches all who read it and realize it as a guide into our own journeys, embracing the pain and the joy of living and discovering.
In this respect, and I’m sure in every other, you are a Bodhisattva. I am in awe of you.
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Marco, you expressed that so beautifully and eloquently there is little I could add. I do hope we hear more from Sasha through not only her journals, but also through her poetry.
Here is a response to you from her:
“Thank you for the kind words, Marco. I’m at a loss for my own since I can be very hard on myself. Sharing this was cathartic. I’m grateful for the opportunity and avenue you’ve provided.
I would like to end this comment with a quote from a beautiful song by Lady Gaga (Always Remember Us This Way): “You found the light in me that I couldn’t find.”
Ever grateful,
Sasha
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Thank you for posting Sasha’s comment. Marco
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